Monday, February 18, 2008

Nothing Says Happy Birthday!


She Sits in Darkness
Originally uploaded by m.Lee
For the Love of a Female

Like cold, rain, wind and being sick to top it all off.

It's my 30th birthday today and outside is depressing on a day when I really need it to not be.

Seriously, February is not a good month to have a kid in most areas of the United States. It is hard caring for a newborn in this weather with bundling them up and illness and all that fun stuff new parents just love.

And it isn't fun for them when they are older. This is the second time in a row that I have been sick and isolated on my birthday. I dragged myself out to a little birthday dinner on Saturday night, but due to weather and traveling for the long weekend only three people came. When you have something planned in February you need to anticipate people dropping out or it getting canceled last minute because of a storm.

If we ever choose to have another child I plan on trying to avoid months November through March as due dates. Early September was a great time to have a baby. And Boston summers are a lot milder than Chicago summers so it wasn't all that bad being huge during the summer. And it certainly wasn't as dangerous as being huge in icy conditions!

While I firmly anticipate that I am on the right track in my life finally and that my thirties will be better than my twenties today is still such a bummer. I got my hopes up thinking that my dad would send me something this year. He told me that he would send me a little something along with some of my sister's old baby clothes but predictably that never happened. And you know what, it hurts.

And I miss my mother today. A lot. I picked up a book for blee yesterday and thought about how if she were around then blee would always have plenty of books from grandma. Thankfully she raised me well and I know what to get. It was an exchange and I had a very limited selection to choose from so I got Harold and the Purple Crayon. It is a little to old for her, but it never hurts to start the collection. There is a Leo Lionni (Fish is Fish and Frederick) box set that I want badly.

I was supposed to go to a babywearing group in Cambridge today as the meeting this time is actually a lot more accessible than normally. But with this weather I am not so sure anymore.

At least I am not puking on my birthday like last year! And I have a lot that I am truly and deeply grateful for this year. It would just be nice, yanno, to not be hacking up strange things on my birthday for a change. *edit* thinking about my symptoms and the fact that my father in law had pneumonia I am starting to suspect that I have a case of walking pneumonia. Freakin hell! And the doctor won't even be open for me to make an appointment! Double doh!

stubborn!

21 comments:

gilfling said...

Happy happy birthday!! I know it perhaps isn't a great day for you but your thirties will be spectaculor! Mine have been so much better than my twenties so far. I do hope today perks up for you. Wishing you a wonderful year ahead in every way. x

Unknown said...

happy birthday! your art is lovely...and i found my 30s (thus far) way better than my 20s.

jodie said...

Happy Birthday Marissa!
I hope you feel better soon :)

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday! I have to echo the other commenters - so far, my 30s have been so much better than my 20s. I hope the same is true for you. Take care of yourself. xxx scarlett

stilettoheights said...

Happy Birthday Marissa!!!!!

Caroline said...

Happy birthday!

As a late January baby, I know what it's like to have plans canceled/postponed due to bad weather/sickness. I'm sorry you're not feeling well... hope you get better soon, and that you can treat yourself to something special!

High Desert Diva said...

Hope you are able to find joy on your birthday even with sickness.

Michelle Engel Bencsko said...

Happy Birthday Marissa!

smittenkittenorig said...

Happy b-day! May the downside of this day be the worst of your 30th year. :) And I hope you feel better asap.

Taina said...

Happy Birthday, Marissa! Feel better soon!

Unknown said...

Happy Birthday! Here's a birthday cupcake for you:

http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2243/2231353089_ba267b6e5f_m.jpg

JennyBunnyEtsy said...

Happy Birthday!

Kellybot said...

Have a wonderful birthday! Here's hoping you kick this bug soon.

BlenderBach said...

Happy Birthday!!

All Wired Up TOO said...

Happy Birthday! Sending you healing prayers.

Marissa L. Swinghammer said...

Thank you everybody!

I'm feeling a bit better as is typical during the day, and the weather has cleared up.

So I am going to go look for some spring shoes! Love my old orange Pumas but I would like something a little dressier sometimes.

Megan said...

Happy 30th, Marissa!

Ivy & Mae said...

Happy birthday mLee. Today is the day you share with your mom, it is a day for you and for her, the ties that bind I suppose!

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday! :]

jen said...

aw! dirty thirty :) happy birthday marissa!!!!!

Marissa L. Swinghammer said...

Thank you thank you all! It didn't turn out so bad after all. The weather did a total shift and I got to spend a lot of quality time with my little family as my husband had the day off.