Even the rain

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When a dreary rainy day doesn't keep me from enjoying my day that is when I know that I am doing better. Unfortunately with the sporadic storms we had to keep our walks brief but still enjoyable. And it least it wasn't hot out. And a new friend of mine, a SAHM that lives a few blocks away, came over for lunch with her sweet little boy. I have my work to keep me busy but having some sort of social activity during the day really helps me stay sane.

This is the two of us in a long woven wrap that I purchased months ago but could never get the hang of a back carry until today. I'm still no master with it but I will keep at it because it is very comfortable and I just love the material. If it doesn't work I will probably have it cut up and turned into a podagi (Korean inspired carrier). Blee looks like a total ghost baby in this picture, but she actually has a bit of color these days despite my lathering her up with sunscreen and covering her with a hat and sometimes even a parasol. But compared to me she will always be my little white girl. Especially since I have gotten quite a nice tan this summer with all the walking we've been doing.





Still scanning in and listing work from the weekend at a good pace. I also am re-organizing some files on my computer in an attempt to get organized and to get some high-res images over to the Flashbags ladies for a new line of my work. That is something on my task list for Thursday.

The weekend is coming up, not soon enough. Enjoy it.

Gotcha

Dream World
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April Fools!

Thanks everybody for playing along. With everything that has been going on lately I needed something to make me laugh and lighten the mood a bit. If you enjoy my collages don't worry they are still intact and hanging up on my studio wall. And if you don't well you don't have to come over to look at them.

Things are really no good. Awful really. The news about my friend is looking more grim by the day and today I really cried about it for the first time since hearing the initial news. I guess I have been in such shock and also been fighting feeling grim about it these past weeks but today I broke down. Then I baked them some popovers. They have people doing their grocery shopping, helping with the kids, somebody even got them Celtic tickets so they could go out on a date last night. I baked because I had to do something. Had to keep busy since blee has been so well behaved Monday and today and certainly wasn't feeling much creative energy. Jon is over visiting them now bringing the baked goodness.

I'm tired and sick feeling. I think I am going to enjoy one of the extras that I made in a muffin pan (not nearly the same as the ones using the special popover pan) and go to bed early. If I can fall asleep without him that will be something I haven't been able to do ever since we had the baby. Bedtime needs to have all three of us together. Speaking of her she turns seven months tomorrow (the 2nd). I can hardly believe how much I love her. She's the best thing that ever happened to me.





Goodnight and goodmorning.

Something good please!

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This is simple right?

Give me something good. Make me smile any way you think would work.

Here is my first attempt at digital art that I think is work showing. Selling? No way. Printing out and displaying? Certainly not! But it is worth showing that I am indeed making progress with my new digital tablet. This is actually from a sketch that I have had for years but never got to turning into a print as it would take a lot more time than this.

This took me around ten minutes. Well, fifteen if you include me digging through old sketches looking for it.

I'm hoping for a good weekend. Planning on getting out and getting my nose repierced, an idea I have been toying with for ages. I did it myself when I was fifteen and then removed it for the parents of my now husband. I regret it. Just a little stud not a ring, rings don't suit me.

Have a wonderful day! Thanks to everybody for the support through this difficult time. Hopefully I can transfer that support onto my friends.

Tonight I will make mac and cheese for a friend I don't see nearly enough and her new boy. This is good.

This post was blogged with a wiggling blee on my lap. She says hello.

Not Good

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Other than some really poorly timed stupid family drama we are fine.

But our good friend is far from fine and it is seeping into our lives. It is really hard to focus on making art much less trying to sell it when your friend and neighbor keeps getting more and more bad news about his health. The cancer has spread to part of his abdominal cavity and one lung. I feel sick thinking about what him and his family must be going through somehow. Now my mom beat a cancer where the prognosis of living past two years post op was around 12% and lived for over sixteen years. That is what I keep telling myself. And he has even more to live for and a much stronger support system. Him and his wife are probably the best people I know in terms of goodness. Certainly better than I am. This just isn't right.

I found out the details of the day after this walk. The weather was perfect, the flowers are starting to peek out, the perfect day. I knew things were bad but not this bad. I had a friend over and we got lunch at this local place that I have fallen in love with. Not being alone with blee helped me cope. We didn't talk about it much but just having a friend around was good for me. I managed to do a bit of papercutting and that is about it.

People should be nicer to each other.

I just want my friend to be okay. F!

Cancer Sucks!

I had a blog post focusing on these two drawings that I plan on turning into Gocco prints for collage started, but never got to finishing it.

Then Jon came hold and told me that he had bad news. That a friend of ours has colon cancer, he's 38 years old and has three small children.

I deleted my original posting and started over.

I'm at a loss about what to say now I am so stunned and sad. Jon is over there now. Prayers/ good vibes/ whatever you have would be great. Their youngest is one and a half years old. Their oldest boy is six.

Speaking of cancer before all this unfolded I went to a mom's group I had never been to and one of the moms I ended up talking with is a Neurologist specializing in brain tumors and epilepsy. Needless to say she was interested in my story and I was interested in her line of work. She said that sadly other than surgical advances very little has changed in the last thirty years for brain tumor treatment.

I want to go to sleep now. It is really hard to be productive when your mind wanders to some very real and close to home troubles.

Plus the neighbors are smoking and making something ridiculously stinky. I think it might be pot. They are always smokers but it rarely filters into our place like this. It's giving me a headache.