Monday, April 07, 2008

I don't wanna


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Originally uploaded by m.Lee
Hey all.

Been feeling very much a slacker lately. The weather has taken a turn for the worst and I am just generally feeling upset. My friend is having his cancer surgery on Tuesday and it is hard to focus on anything but worry. I want it to be Wednesday so it can be over with and he will be fine. Well not fine as he will still need chemo and everything so the battle is far from over but I want this first huge step over.

I'm putting up art from March now and might get to drawing or something but honestly the muse isn't speaking to me these days.

It isn't even 8pm and I just want to go to bed. Maybe I will. Haven't had dinner because my appetite is terrible and I have not been getting the activity that I used to. Blee is well but a little bit fussy during the day.

Well, I hope this post finds you doing better than I am. Sorry to be such a downer. I'm trying but it is hard not to be when life explodes in your face. We are still not speaking to my inlaws and it doesn't look like that will change anytime soon. It is sad.

4 comments:

Rosebud Collection said...

You have every right to feel down..
Sounds like a lot is going on..but you never know what the next day will bring..this is spoken from one who has been so low, I had to look up to see bottom..

matilda sue said...

Sometimes Life Sucks - sounds like you are in that place. I was there not too long ago. When I was someone said - don't worry it always works out in the end, and if it hasn't worked out its not the end. They were right. It will get better!

Marissa L. Swinghammer said...

It is hard to chalk cancer up to life just sucking sometimes and that it will work out in the end. My mom died of cancer so I don't think it worked out in the end. It just ended.

I get where you are coming from but I am very scared.

And the inlaws not coming through and acting like adults isn't helping during this stressful time.

erin said...

Oh Marissa, I feel for you and your friend. :( My friend (penpal, really, but a great friend because we've written for over 3 years) went in for surgery on April 1 to have all of her girly parts removed. She has ovarian cancer. I haven't heard from her since and I'm becoming quite concerned.

Problems with the inlaws are always bad. Good luck with all of that...what a hassle.