Monday, August 07, 2006
Finding my Voice
This weekend I made two sales and they felt like a nice bonus. I haven't been listing or promoting at all and I don't really care to. The art needs to come first. I don't need to make art to eat and I should take advantage of that.
I picked up this book; The Artist's Way, a book that I have been tempted by before but didn't buy because of the spirituality aspect and because I was having no problem creating. It is a twelve week lesson plan. One of the things that I am doing for it is writing three pages of whatever every morning and it is really hard to do. Depression makes me want to sleep not write. But I am doing my best to stick with it as best as I can and it I will improve. I treated myself to a Moleskin notebook because they are the best I have ever used. I have added sketching daily to my program. They don't have to be good but I need to try and eventually something will come out of them.
I have been thinking a lot about my insecurities and about my successes as well. One big insecurity is that my art is too pretty and not serious enough. I love my work, I really do, but it is more about the process of making it than some great meaning. I don't have a political or social agenda with it, that just isn't me. It will never be hip. My process is pretty nontraditional but nobody knows that. I know that a lot of artists and art people would and do look down on my art as being too commercial. Sometimes I let this get me down, but I have to do what I want to do and forget other people.
Now something good about myself. I realized that in the past year I have made over 200 pieces of art and have art hung in homes and businesses all over the world. Not bad for a girl that started doing this a year ago! So what if I am taking a break right now really. I will be okay in the end because the drive and talent is still there.
I am going to try and blog more often again. Not for promotion but for myself.