Thursday, July 24, 2008

exhaustion

Checking in after a week long absence. I'm just having a heck of a time keeping up with blogging. Even when blee does give me time I find my energy level so low I have a hard time forming words for a post.

I think I need to get back on some sort of a schedule. Or at least have a short goal list for the day. I'm so much more productive when I do and I feel a sense of accomplishment at the end of the day. I think I was doing seven things awhile back? Right now even when I do produce something I don't feel much satisfaction from it. It is like it doesn't count. It is hard to describe.

Yesterday I printed during a naptime. Got a lot of printing done actually, but it doesn't feel like I did because nothing got finished. It was just about building layers. Now I need to go back today or tomorrow and add two or three more. I should feel good as the prints turned out nice, but I don't. The custom order is 3/4 finished and I should feel good about that but I just feel anxious about getting it done. Is this depression? This inability to be happy.

maple leaves

cleanup

6 comments:

theaestheticelevator.com said...

I can understand that frustration of doing a lot but not feeling like you made any progress, having not actually completed a piece :p

Becca said...

I do better when I write down a list of tasks for the day as well. I've gotten away from it, after I finished my first show, and find myself floundering.

Rosebud Collection said...

What a beautiful job you are doing.
I think your doing great.
Don't think I am silly, but have you ever had your thyroid checked?..

Debra Percival said...

My Mom said "don't complain, someday you are going to miss all this" I was single and on my own with two little ones. They are all grown up now. Mom was right. Hug your kid and yourself at the same time. As for your art and what you are getting done. WOW, your amazing!
DJ Percival

Ellen Shipley said...

I have to agree with Debra. ;-] My "baby" is 25. They grow up so fast! (Even tho it doesn't seem so at the time.)

As for getting things done, be flexible in your schedule and set tiny goals. That way you can take satisfaction in finishing them. 8-]

Love the leaf block.

Marissa L. Swinghammer said...

Thanks for the feedback and support. Had a good weekend and hopefully this week will be better even though blee isn't sleeping well (not normal).

I am looking in to getting my thyroid checked. That has been suggested a number of times.

And I started making a list today and so far so good. Four out of seven complete.