Monday, June 02, 2008
I'm on vacation but am already starting to do things like draw again that it is tempting for me to give myself goals, like do a drawing and post it every day this month. Really very tempting. Is this a bad thing? And what about the days when I am going to be out of town? Drawing is never much of an issue for me as I always have something to draw on and with on me, but photographing and uploading it to. See, this could get ugly and end up being something I feel pressured to do and then feel guilty about when eventually I do break my goal. And then I stop enjoying myself and stop drawing and my vacation is wasted because I am right back to feeling stressed out, burnt out and miserable.
I can't even give myself a break from blogging. But I am enjoying writing this blog post so whatever. If I want to draw then I will do it and maybe I will even try doing a simple sketch like this daily, but I am not going to make some set goal no matter how tempting it may be.
And happy monthday to blee, she turns nine months old at 7:14pm tonight, June 2nd. She's growing up so fast with her sitting up and trying so hard to talk and learning to stand, she is going to be a year in no time at all. Being pregnant seems like a lifetime ago and I am good with that feeling far away because it was one of the most miserable times in my life. And being a mom is the best! This period is the best so far as she is really quite easy to care for. We go on walks and enjoy them and sometimes she naps during them and sometimes she looks around and babbles. Sometimes I go to a park and sit with her on a blanket in the grass and watch her play with the grass. You really see the world in a totally different way as a parent by being around this creature where everything is a new experience.